In a Dilemma Situation

Yesterday night, I heard a news that is breaking my friend's heart. Because of this news, it made me to think of us. I kept asking myself, should I wait for you? Or starting from now on I should block you out of my mind and my heart?

What my friend had said have the points. Rather waiting for some kind of thing that is impossible, I should just stop it now. But inner of me, I want to be selfish. I don't want to let you go even if someone is beside you. Am I very selfish for doing so? Should I just let you go?

Missing You

Not a lucky day _ Thursday

Recently I were looking at new handphones. At first, I wanted to buy Nokia N8 because it has large phone memory. 16GB! And it is a touchscreen phone. This colour is what I choose, dark grey. But the colour is more towards to black. I even had paid some amount of the money as the deposit.
However, I heard one of the staff said the motherboard and the other softwares have some problems. So the first batch of this phone had been all collected back. That why last few days I went to the shop to claim back the deposit. Now officially said goodbye to my N8.

Then, Miss Ferret and I had hailed a dishonest taxi. The driver did not intend to use metre. But he did not mention us of it. Once we got inside the car, he just started the metre. So we thought he was using metre. However, I found something weird. The metre was covered by a cap. It made me quite worried that he cheated us at the starting price.

When we arrived the hostel, we gave him RM 10 and he just put it into his pocket!!! Without looking at the metre!!! I asked him how much, then he let me see the metre. It was only RM 8!!!
He still can accept the extra RM 2 without asking us. Shame on him!!! I argued with him and lastly he unwillingly gave back us RM 2. And then he said, "You should ask is whether according to metre or not then baru take the cab!" Sorry to say that it was your fault for not informing us at the first place.

Argh!!!! Nothing more to say. Just wish next week will be more better!!! Nice taxi drivers and have a new handphone.

P/S: Forget to "praise" Verns's staffs in Sunway Giza Mall incident. Never mind. Just let it passed.

To-Do-List for Tomorrow

Since tomorrow is public holiday, I need not to go to school.

The first thing I will do is to sleep. Secondly, read the fictions. Please bear in mind, not study. That is a huge difference between leisure reading and study. ^^

While this one, it surely out of my priority list. I think no one want to do extreme reading during the holiday. Maybe some of them will favour of this. But sorry, not me! Just don't count me in that group. I don't want to stress myself even though I still have assignments that are waiting me to do.

So, overall, I will just sleep, eat and watch drama for tomorrow holiday. No Evidence essays, Tort Law's test and Trust. ^^ Enjoy the holiday!!!

Addicted to Adrian Mole series

Recently, I had read Adrian Mole: The Prostrate Years. I quite like the style. Relaxing and amusing. After finished reading this book, it made me crazy with the others. Miss Ferret told me the series of Adrian Mole (before The Prostrate Years) is quite old. There will be slightly difficult to collect the whole Adrian Mole.

Well, we went to KLCC Kinokuniya. At there, I just managed to collect 6 out of 8. I had missed The Secret Diary of Adrian Mole and the Adrian Mole: From Minor to Major.

But, these few days ago, I bought the former from the Borders. When I looked through the year when it published. Okay, it was first published at 1982!!! No kidding! I haven't born yet at that time.

How about the latter, Adrian Mole: From Minor to Major? Sadly to say that, this one looks like will not be published again. Even the bookshops also did not have it.

So, now I still could not find this book. I wish I can own this book before I finish read the others. Don't want to miss the whole story out.

Really Sorry

I'm sorry for what I had did to you today. I'm very very sorry. I'm know I should have said something to you when you asked me questions. I should not just keep quiet at there. I'm know I have let your hope down.

I hope you will forgive me.

AGAIN!!!

What a miserable day after some kind of unforeseen circumstances (bad) happened. One of them is we today went to SMC again! At first I just want to get some medicines for my nausea. But I was pushed to see doctor.


Doctor: Do you have vomit anything?

Me: Nothing. Just feel like want to vomit.

Doctor: Are you pregnant?

Me: NO!!!!!

Doctor: Single or Married?

Me: Single.

Doctor: Last few month do you have sexual activity?

Me: NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Doctor: Confirm?

Me: YES!!!!



I think at that moment, my face was as red as tomato. Even that nurse also giggled of the doctor's questions. Didn't know is embarrassed or what.

Fortunately, I'm not pregnant. Just gastric. Nothing happened at all.

P/S: White Hooder, if I kena denggi, you're the one have to responsible since you now have unidentified rashes.

My IDOL ^^

Now, I'm addicted to Owl. They are so CUTE!!!!

P/S: Anyone who know where have sold t-shirts with owl image, please kindly inform me. I

want to collect!!!

*Must be cute

I LOVE OWL!!!

Is My Fault for NOT Taking Public Bus?

What a coincident. I never thought that I will bump into you at Pasar Seni, although your office are at there. I know you had stayed at Selangor for many years. But still, please don't think all of my judgments are wrong.


I tried to believe you. But still could not. Why? Because of your previous recommendation for the hotel, I totally lost all my faith in you. You said that hotel everything was okay. Safe... Clean... Convenient... Blah blah! End up, the room is a mess. And the staffs are quite freak me up. I'm not being a racist. But just imagine, two women stayed at there. A few unknown country MEN came to your room and did the room service. Most imperative, they not in uniform. Could not 100% confirm who are they. So how could you say this place is safe for us?

About the public bus, I reckon you don't know sometimes buses do not reach at the exact place that I want. Or even do not go to that place. Consequently, I just choose to ignore you at all.

Sorry, Uncle. I might be at the stage of rebellion. That why I don't even bother to accept your any opinion. Therefore, please STOP telling me how to do or giving any advice.

Tonight, I am staying at a hotel situated at Mid Valley City. I guess you might know which one. Staring outside the window, and watching the cars just run down like that, make me feel more sad.

Wondering are you one of those drivers? Rushing back home or go somewhere else?

Wondering are you also watching the night view, which quite similar to mine?

Wondering do you feel the same thing? Feeling lost in the city?

If you ask me the same questions, I will definitely say YES. I wish I am one of those drivers. Rushing to a place especially your heart.

Yup. I'm also watching the night view. But I wish you are beside me. As my company. No need any conversation. Just quietly enjoy the view together.

Yes. I'm totally lost without you...

When will you come to my side?

Disaster

These two days, I apparently exhausted with the something that so-called "NOT" so important thing, my health. Because of the sickness, I already skipped a week of my classes. Sometimes I felt guilty for I had done to my study. If not mistaken, I remembered I had promised that I will not skip my class AGAIN. So, obviously, I broke the promise. To be honest, I glad that I did not show up in the class. It is because some of the 38 gang (don't want them have something to gossip ) and also, I don't want my lecturers to worry.

Okay. Where did I go to seek my treatment? First place was Sunway Medical Centre.

I love to call it SMC. More easier to remember. One word can describe this place, Impressive. Once you arrive there, you will be welcomed by their staffs at the entrance. If you are a Starbucks fan, don't worry. Starbucks coffee house just at your right-hand side after you enter the building. And the staffs are quite professional. I, however, considered my luck at that day quite bad. Some of the new trainees were there!!! I could not believe that I will eventually become a white rat! SO LUCKY! Great! My bad day still haven't even ended. Why do I say so? When my turn to go to inside to see doctor, I saw two trainees were sitting at there. Doing nothing. So that is still ok. But I felt like I'm a circus monkey, which doing a free show for them. And then, came to this part of conversation,

Doctor: Please stop consuming alcohol drinks and also including smoking.

Bang! Did I look like a smoker or drinker to you, doctor??!! Maybe that is a standard one. They must to say that even you are not a smoker or drinker. I took it as defamation since I'm NOT a smoker and drinker. I think you will say, "C'mon, he don't even know you". But still, also felt offended. After examined, he just found it (my dearest friend called it as usus) not so better. He told me could not eat fried, oily, spicy, sour and hard chewy food for 2 or 3 days. That means I just can drink water, more better is fruit juice. Of course. I now is not listening to his words. *wink*

Second day, Tropicana Medical Centre (TMC) - No Starbucks, but has 7-Eleven.

Victory!!!! I'm a winner!!! I finally successfully dragged my friend to go there to do blood test. At the moment of waiting, I kept telling her about the procedure in order to scare her. Hehe! With this evil smile, you should know what she felt after listened to my explanation. Inside the room, the nurse kept trying to find my artery or vein. She did not manage. At last she did it on my hand. Quite pain actually. I cannot totally cover my expression although I endured it.

After almost 2 hours of waiting, my report finally came out. Overall, all normal. Thankfully nothing wrong with my health. No high blood pressure or cholesterol. Got one time the nurse was shocked by my pressure, 137/88. But after that back to normal due to some reasons.

Since already after 5pm, there was no doctor at A&E department. 24 hours? Even SMC also could not believe it (we directly went to SMC to ask for consultation). My friend and I were like siao zha po. Kept laughing at there. What the doctor asked me is the most funniest part. I found out that SMC's doctors have the sense of humour. She told me everything are normal when she went through my report. Suddenly,

Doctor: Are you single or married?

Me: Single.

Doctor: Do you sexually active?

Me: No!

Really OMG!!! I really want to commit suicide. Before that I'm a smoker or drinker. Now I'm a person who addicted with SEX! Really can't believe it. My friend so "nice", she just laughed at there until could not say a single word. NEVER MIND!

So, I now feeling more better. Not as serious as you think. I will take good care of my health. Just don't worry.

Unbelievable!!!!!!!!

Today, 3.46pm afternoon, my housemate who was my friend's best friend, was officially moved out from the hostel. How did I know it? I definitely not went out and became a gek po. She was the one knocked my room door and informed me about this. Obviously, I got a bit "sad". WHY? Okay, let me tell you.

No one will make the noise during cookong time and the night time.

No free concerts anymore.

No one will use my stuffs anymore.

No melting fridge.

No more stuck wash basin / flood.

And etc...

By the way, when she left the hostel, I was indirectly said goodbye to my Samaria and Samalinda. Of course, Samalinda WAS belonged to my friend. She kept crying for the loss of it. But never mind. At least she still managed to see it for the last time. How about my Samaria? Now it probably at the unknown place. And the most important is, I did NOT manage to look at it when she left. I still remembered the way I kept finding of it. Even my friend also laughed at my action. Maybe I over-reacted. BUT ALSO NEVER MIND. I just let it passed.

Now she already moved out. Due to the very last minute of information, I didn't manage to held a farewell party for her. Haiz... Please do not think I am being sarcastis. I just want to show my friendliness, as her housemate, for about half of the year, I think.

So, overall, GOODBYE, my dear friend. Hopefully still can see you. I really mean it!!! *wink*

Finally reached 21!!!

Yesterday was my birthday. According to my memories, I used to celebrate my birthday with my friends at a restarant. But this year my celebration quite different with the previous years. I spent my whole day with a girl who kept wanting a kura-kura, Sammy as her present (after watched the trailer of Sammy's Adventure). Of course, her wish never ever came true. It was because we didn't know where to buy the kura-kura. But never mind. At least in October, she will be going to see her beloved Sammy at the cineme (the screen).

Next stop we were spending our time at the MPH bookfair. I was too excited (maybe a bit overexcited) when there was 25% discount for selected books. However, Sammy's pseudo-owner apparently kena shocked by my response. Why I said like that? Okay. That girl kept mentioning the 25% discount when I took one of the books. She reminded me which book got discount. So, should I praise her for such a kindness attitude or her sarcastic? ^.^ Personally I will choose the second one-praise for her SARCASTIC. But never mind. I had my revenge by disturbing her when she was looking at books. "This book got 25% discount leh" was my phrase for her.

Afterward, we went to watch "The Last Airbender". The main character (that kid) undeniable quite cute. I like him. The whole movie is not bad. But the ending quite sad. The girl could not be with that kid due to his status, Avatar. She has to accept that fact, although they have the same feeling towards each other.

After the movie, I officially declared my birthday had over. Now, I'm a 21 years old girl who still study. Nothing changed with my appearance (NO wrinkles) except my age. HAHAHA! So, this is my story of how to celebrate my birthday 2010. 

THE END.

很不安的感觉

今天和上个星期，我终于梦到你了。而且是两次了。真的很开心。可是这两个梦的终点差不多很相似。那就是你都在帮我。但是，你过后一定离我而去，留下我一个人在那里。这是不是代表着你只是我短暂的守护者，而不是永远呢？你真的不能永远陪着我吗？我不想你只是帮我解难，然后就丢下我不理了。我不想要这样。我要的是你永远在我的身边，不只是帮我解困境，还要是我一辈子的另一半。真的很希望你将会是我的生命中的另一半...

KL vs Hometown

AH!!!! These few days, if to be more precisely, is suppose this whole week, I was haunted by FLU monster. Kept sneezing there and here. Spreading the flu viruses all around my house. Especially to my brother. Hehe! It's quite fun to see him keep avoiding and blaming for my mission : Spread the virus.

According to my health report (fully recognized by Dr Liew-me), I'm more healthier when I study at KDU compared at my hometown. Why I say like that? Even my family also curious about this. Hmm.... Let me, Dr Liew analyse the factors.

1. Miss Squeezy
I 'm wonder how to describe this Miss Squeezy. She's a bit crazy and quite disturbing. When I having my sleeping time, she will oftenly scream at my bed side or throw her lovely Moo Moo pillow towards me. This has indirectly trained my inner immunity for my allergic.

2. Shopping
First of all, I'm not a shopaholic. Not as crazy as Rebecca Bloomwood. OKAY! I admit I will act a bit insane when Elle or Marks and Spencer has the season. ^.^ But from my perspective, shopping is a good exercise for me. You need enormous energy to hop there and try the new clothes. At a nutshell, shopping can train my ability to fight allergic.

3. Teddy Bear
Thanks to my that cute teddie!!!!! Playing with him makes me feel more happier. Sometime I will held a wrestling competition with him. He had encouraged me to exercise more. Mean that I have to beat him more often in order to keep me healthy.
Me : Teddie, you won't blame me, right?
Teddie: *Silence
Me : Okay, that means you don't blame me *wink*

But now, I have fully recovered. Just sometimes still will sneeze. ^.^

事业或爱情？

刚才，我发了一个很奇怪的梦。梦里面，我的朋友跟我说，我已经拿到我该有的事业了。然后，我就问我得到我的事业了？她还说那个女子很明显已经没有了。可是我的事业被我抓到很稳。不只那样，她还对我说找到自己心爱的人比较重要。那时候，我的心里杀出来的人是你。我记得你曾经说过，东西不重要的，人比较重要。如果要我从事业和爱情作选择的话，我绝对会选爱情。

昨天晚上，正当我看书看到很入神时，突然发现到我的手臂上有一个红色的印。好像是被针孔刺到而留下来的。而且又红又肿！我真的很好奇发生什么事了！我又没有撞到东西。差不多一整天都在睡觉。我朋友说好像是捐血还是验血而弄到的。过后想了一想，我觉得吊点滴的可能性比较大。前阵子，我觉得好晕。还差点要倒了。很大可能是因为没有吃到什么东西吧。我希望现在的你已经开始吃东西了。还有好好的睡觉了。我真的很心痛当我看到这个印块。真的很对不起！真的很不应该把事情闹到那么僵的。

思念篇

刚睡醒，
我在想着，
不知从何时开始，
我的心跳再也不是属于我一个人了。
我的两个心房被一个人所占据了。
开心就一起开心。
你心痛我也跟着心痛。
你很落寞不开心，我就哭了。
我很恨我自己。
你不开心的时候，我不应该哭的。
我想要安慰你。
而不是令你更加不开心。
有时候，我好像变成你的负担了。
如果你没有遇见我，会不会过得比较好？
可是，
如果我没有遇见你，我的生活就不会多姿多彩了。
我应该会很麻木的郭我的生活。
所以，
我很开心你闯入了我的生活。
让我过得更充实了。

生病了!

昨天的我生病了。
我没有胃口要吃东西。
真的很怀念十二月份的粥。
少姜丝，
很多鸡肉，
里面有不知是包菜还是酸菜（本人认为是酸菜^^），
红辣椒和青葱当配料，
麻油当提味的。
最重要的是那粥的浓稠度很恰当。
米粒很分明。
我真的很想念这个粥了。
应该说已经深深爱上这个粥了。
我几时可以再可以吃到呢？

说不出来的感觉~

今天的天气很晴朗。
可是我无法如常睡得很暗。
应该是被一个人所影响的吧。
在房间里，我的心里填满了很多的疑惑。
你是不是也是起床了？
有没有想念我？
可是这些疑问我得不到答案。
我只能说我真的很想念你
你的一切，
你的动作，
你的笑容，
牢牢印在我的脑海里。
我很怕有一刻时间会夺走我的这些记忆。
可是有一件事我可以确定，
我们的约定，
我是不会忘记的。
我会竭尽所能去实现我们的约定。
甚至你对我说过的话，
我也牢牢地记在我心中。
现在我正在努力地去做。
我相信我的感觉不会因时间而冲淡的。
短暂的不见是一种考验。
就让回忆填满我的思念。